Persahabatan yang KUAT

Lama juga xupdate blog, hampir setahun... Malam ni sebelum birthday nak cerita ckit pasal persahabatan yang KUAT yang dh byk kali bergaduh manja2 pun masih berkawan semula lagi. Tapi, kali ni dh 3 hari tak msg, entah kuat lagi seperti dulu tak.

Saya kenal dia waktu degree 2nd year. Saya anggap dia sifu terbaik saya. Org lain masuk kelas panggil En., saya?? sy duk panggil abg n masa tu selalu YM dgn dia.. Semua org pun jeluz dgn sy rapat dgn lab demo, selalu dpt markah tinggi...

Time ni juga dia ajak keluar, belanja sy dgn member sy makan. Pastu bawa sy ke Gambang Waterpark. Kalau tiada dia, xsampai pun Gambang waterpark.. Sgt2 enjoy trip tu walaupun keesokan hari ada final.. berani juga saya.. hehe..

Time 3rd yr masa FYP, dia la byk membantu saya, bg idea utk dissolve sy punya materials. dia juga la yg membaca thesis n bg idea kat sy selalu. Selama2 jadi setiausaha KEMAFIZ, dia juga sy ganggu utk check surat, minta tunjuk ajar utk buat minit mesyuarat..

Masuk master, kita pun lagi byk perbincangan tentang research.. Perbincangan la sgt.. selalu mesti sy yg ganggu dia.. duk tanya soalan, mesti dia runsing dgn sy tp dia xpernah pun menolak permintaan saya.. masuk ke sem 2, sy pun dptlah jawatan felo asrama, lagi la rapat kita dua.. buat prog sama2, discussion kat kafe ARL sama2... rindu juga time2 tu asyik keluar makan malam sama.. (sekrg dh hampir 1 sem xde keluar makan malam sama..)

Duk cerita yg gembira.. sekrg nk cerita pulak yg part sedih... entah knp bila dh makin rapat, mungkin makin byk la perselisihan faham, tp selalunya sy akn memulakan mohon maaf sbb sy xnk hilang kawan+sifu+abg terbaik sy.. perkara yg buat sy sedih semua pasal felo.. 1st pasal portfolio baru sy, 2nd pasal fiesta kemerdekaan, 3rd pasal MKS... semua benda yg menimbulkan masalah semua di asrama.. Mungkin sy bukan felo terbaik, tp sy dh cuba sedaya upaya utk jadikan terbaik.. Sy tahu sy felo baru, mungkin sy byk lg kena belajar.. sambil2 belajar, sambil2 juga kadang2 sy menyampaikan apa kelemahan yg sy nmpk.. sy tidak berniat utk meruntuhkan maruah siapa2, sy cuma berharap masing2 blh membaiki kelemahan tu utk masa depan..

Sambil tulis blog, sambil jug air mataku mengalir.. mungkin ada benda yg dia xtau.. mungkin dia xfaham perasaan sy.. mungkin dia xtau apa yg telah sy alami masa kita bertelingkah (sampai kena minta tlg kak bad buatkan air utk sy).. utk dia, mungkin semua ni adalah mslh kecil yg tidak perlu difikir.. sy dh tau perangai dia, kalau nk tunggu dia mulakan msg sy, mmg xmungkin la.. ego yg ada kat dia masih xkurang2 lagi..

tp satu sy rasa bangga ialah disebabkan sy (mungkin kot), sy dh rasa dia lebih rapat dgn sv dia.. dulu kalau msk ofis sv, mesti xckp, sekrg adalah sembang ckit2.. saya msh ingat bila dia ada mslh, sy mesti akn menolong dia semampun sy boleh sbb budi dia mmg akn sy mengenang selama2nya... mungkin ada org akan rasa sy scandal dgn dia, tu yg pulun sgt nk bantu dia utk cari pulau utk prog kesaksis, cari khemah... sekali dia msg bgtau ada masalah tk prog apa2, mesti sy akan tlg fikirkan selagi sy blh.. tp sy xpernah harapkan balasan apa2 pun sbb lagi byk sy hutang dgn dia.. kalau xde dia, mungkin xgrad pun sy..

Saya sebenarnya ingin msg dia tp sy dh xtau nk mulakan mcm mana.. tp sy tau n sy percaya selagi sy xstart mmg hp sy takkan berbunyi sbb dia.. esk hari dh birthday saya.. tarikh yg amat cantik utk tahun ni (11/12/13) tp mungkin tarikh yg mempunyai kenangan pahit je.. sy bukan org glamor dan birthday sy dh berturut2 2 tahun tiada kek.. jd, tahun ni sy pun blh agak la mesti sama je tambah lagi persahabatan ni belum baiki lagi..

ADAKAH SAYA LAGI YANG PERLU MEMULAKAN MSG??? BOLEH TAK SEKALI JE DIA YANG MULA MSG SY?? MUNGKIN INI LAH HASRAT HARI JADI SAYA... TP SY RASA MMG SUSAH LA HASRAT NI TERCAPAI..

I STILL LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND.

Persahabatan

Walaupun sakit kepala, tapi mood untuk update blog masih ada.

Saya tidak tahu apa kesalahan yang saya lakukan sampai awak nak berpura-pura baik dengan saya, appear offline dekat FB. Memandangkan awak tak nak chat dengan saya, atau mungkin saya menyusahkan awak. Saya rasa persahabatan kita ini dah cukup di sini. Saya tak nak fikir benda-benda yang menyakiti hati saya. Saya tidak akan menganggu awak. Saya cuma akan memberitahu perkara penting daripada bersembang biasa. Jangan risau saya masih akan senyum depan awak. Maafkan saya. Saya sudah rasa sesak nafas dengan layanan awak.

 

So stress!!!

Why suddenly I feel so stress? Why I drop my tears? I never cry during my degree study, but I had been cried for quite many times for my master study. I want to be strong, but I failed to do it. I try my best to friend with you even I know that you betray me. I am the one start msg and call you, but you didn't reply and answer call. I found out everytime I drop my tears because of you. I always treat you as my best friend, that's why I worry you. But, it comes out with: You don't want reply my msg; You don't want answer my call; You don't want to discuss with me for anything; You don't want to talk with me. Why I need to face all these things? I put my true heart on you, but what I get is just zero. But, I still remind myself: Maeq Chai, maybe is you are the one who did wrong, so try your best to get back this friendship. Friendship Forever!

Blog pertama 2012

Blog pertama 2012.

Azam baru 2012 saya:
1. Menghabiskan master saya dengan lancar
2. Menjalankan segala urusan dengan lancar
3. Dapat publish 2 lagi paper
4. Dapat pergi conference luar negara
3. Berharap ujian persahabatan dah berhenti pada tahun 2011
4. Berharap abang angkat saya jangan bersikap mementingkan diri :)

Saya rasa bersyukur terdapat senior-senior yang menjaga saya sepanjang pelajaran saya walaupun member-member saya dah belajar dan bekerja dekat tempat lain.

Terima kasih kepada yang menemani saya selama ini- Abg Nik, Kak Bakyah, Kak Zakiyah, Kak Aimi, Asyraff. Love you all so much <3

Birthday + crying day

Today (11/12/2011) is my birthday. It should be a happy day for me. But...... I cry alone in my room.. I really need to be more strong to face with different people. I should always think that different people had their own attitude and I should accept all of it. But, I think today I fail to do it. And I felt so sorry to myself. I shouldn't let myself being so weak. I should think positively that this is one of the challenge that I will face during working time. :)

start my blog agn

I had been a long time didn't write my blog.. Seem now i will start my master life at UMT, so let me start the 1st blog 2day for my master celebration.. hehe

Anyway, I juz hope that I can finish my master in the short time..

updating my blog...

it's been a long time i didn't update my blog... but, i really don't know what to write here.. maybe just feel like a bit unhappy because just left 1 month at Terengganu... really gonna miss here soon... hope tat nextime i can always travel to here.. but, for sure, I will need to disturb my dear abg nik if i come travel at terengganu nextime.. hehe

At Lab postgraduate...

1stime i wrote my blog at lab postgraduate.. Bcoz of too free at here.. but need to stay here for EIS analysis explaination.. so, stay here and get more knowledge on it.. sumore 2day is a lucky day i think 11/1/11.. wat a nice day.. make me feel happy too although my EIS graph not good.. but i learn sumting on it... N i know tat learn from failure is a best motivation for you to improve.. yeah^^

New Year, new target and new hope

2011 is the year of rabbit... which is the new year and also last sem 4 my study.. i need to double up my engine to make everything success in my life..
New target- find a bf(hahaha.. stil need 2 wait a long long time), get dean agn for tis sem(yeah.. sure nid to do it)

lastly, wish my awesome senior, abg nik hepi birthday..

Merry Christmas^^

25 Dec is christmas.. how 2 celebrate it lei.. plan 2 go 2 museum 2ml.. hihi.. den, will go 2 TTI for sunset view... but, x yet plan 2 go where for our dinner.. huhu.. so special celebration.. haha..Merry christmas to all ya^^

My birthday celebration

11/12 is my birthday.. Morning i go out with eddy and kak bakyah to Mesra Mall. 2 of us go 2 watc movie - Narnia III. This movie not bad but compare to Narnia I is still lose a bit. haha. Then, my course mates help me celebrate my birthday at Coco Jumbo. My birthday cake 4 this year is in tiramisu favorite. (Actually I love white chocolate.. Hehe) But, I still thankful to them. BELOW IS A SIMPLE VIDEO FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

Surprise

I believe that good luck is always beside me. My friends just give me a big surprise. But, of course I would like to thank to Tiam Lun, Sook Fong, Kim, Louis and Teng Yew for going survey a new place to celebrate my birthday. Thank you so much. The place that we going to go is Coco Jumbo. Hope it will be nice. And to my Kuching friends, thanks to all of you too because planning to celebrate my birthday too. unfortunately, I didn't back to Kuching. I'm sorry. But, thanks to all of you. Muakz.

A big big surprise...

Thankz to my lovely mom n dad... Although me x at kuch, but u all stil remember my birthday.. muakz.. i so hepi receive the money tat u bank in 2 me.. although cano celebrate wif u all.. but oredi so hepi n touch d.. sumore thankz 2 my bro n sis which oredi buy me a present.. but, i x yet get it.. need 2 wait me bek kuch den i know wats tat.. anyway, thankz 2 my lovely family.. muakz 2 u all.. n hepi birthday 2 my mom too..

Finally

Finally, I finish my sample preparation for my final year project.
Finally, I able to change my blogger template.. haha..
Finally, my grandmother is recover d.. make me not so worry about her..
Hope all the finally will become greater..
Hope that my FYP wont get any trouble in data analysis.
Hope that I can learn more about blogger template to make my blog more better..
Really wish that my grandmother wont get sick.. My heart cant afford it... I will always pray for you, my grandmom.. Hope that you will live longer with me^^

Birthday party 2010

This year(2010) is my 1st yr birthday celebrate at Terengganu.. but, dunno y seem lk wil be a boring birthday.. mayb juz stay at rent house only.. coz everytime is me be the organizer for my frenz birthday.. so, i never think of how my birthday party is.. but i think of my birthday wish is finish my final year project successfully.. haha..
n hepi birthday 2 my brother(4/12).. n my mom(11/12) which same day as me.. muakz 2 them.. n oso tis is the 1stime i din help my mom celebrate birthday.. sori to my mom too.. hehe..

Selfishness

Selfishness denotes an excessive or exclusive concern with oneself; and as such it exceeds mere self interest or self concern. (Wikipedia)Its too sad somehow when your friend being selfish.If the selfishness dismiss in our world, it will be good i think. At least wont happen any group separate inside one course. its so sad that now our members cannot be in a big group. huhu..

Hard to breath

1stime feel like hard to breath. I know tomorrow test quite a bit tough, and i also try hard on it to study what i know. but, i really feel so tension and now even hard to breath. If someone can give me tips now, sure I will thank him or her so much. And love him or her so much too. Its really 1stime i feel that Final exam = the end of the world. (Juz kidding) Haha...

Kuantan trip.. Test??

Although this coming thursday is my first final paper, but stil no mood to read on it. Where is my study mood??? Now mind juz think of Kuantan trip.. Oh my god! Or because of this thursday is Academic writing skill paper so juz relax on it.. coz nothing 2 study.. juz need 2 care about the grammar and learn more vocabulary.. but, anyway, hope tat study mood cum find me soon.. n wish the kuantan trip wil b best... huhu

A sad day

Why 2day feel like so sad??? its to be hepi 2day coz juz celebrate my frenz birthday but sumhow 2day feel so sad... why everytime seem like i m doing wrong even its not my wrong.. is tat i m the easy bully by ppl... so, u all juz like 2 bully me... i rely hv no idea on it... if i do sumting wrong, i wil say sorry d.. but dun blame me if i din do sumting wrong.. u should blame the ppl tat u x like.. dun oways take me as ur enemies.. dun like it... hate it.. so sad... wanna cry d... tear cum out now... frenship rely like shit... i juz trust myself n my family rather than others...

home sick

suddenly think of my lovely family... wish tat i can be home now.. hope my grandma recover soon so tat it wont bring any bad news agn.. i rely scare tat i cant afford it... hope tat all the bad news stop it n the good luck come forwards me...